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The following is a list of the behaviors (short, since some are too complex to describe) of people with physical, visible brain damage. Note how these describe the cruxtoid! This list is based on the symptoms described by Antonio Damasio in DESCARTES' ERROR. What is marked in parentheses are my notes, not from the book.
1. Lack emotions or feelings which direct logical or reasoning part of mind into correct DECISION MAKING SPACE where advantageous solutions to problems lie.
2. Lack awareness of feelings and emotions as DIRECT PERCEPTIONS of bodily states. Feelings and emotions are NOT associated with bodily organs, but exclusively with external objects, words, faces, etc. which evoke them. Feelings and emotions are mere qualifiers in life for them, not REAL THINGS. (Hence when the feelings rule them (as they rule others) they are UNAWARE of it: unconscious mind.)
3. Feelings are intangible, elusive, even mysterious; they are never cognitive or related to the intellectual verbal realm. (Poor vocabulary regarding feelings.)
4. Their bodies are their brain's CAPTIVE AUDIENCE which is the reverse of how it is in animals, and normal people! (The UNRULY body must be controlled, prime dictate of xianity.)
5. The body is never used as a yardstick or guage for knowing and measuring the world. This frame of reference is MISSING in them. Some external reality or idea is used as a ground reference for constructions of the world and reality. (their knowledge is OUTER, never INNER or CARNAL.)
6. Bodily states are not a basic topic, they provide only support and modulation.
7. Out of the ordinary attachment to objects, collectables, collector's behavior, including the collection sometimes of animals. (Compulsive, retentive, control-maniacs.)
8. Planning for future activity is ALWAYS a disaster. (Ecology, economy, ad nauseum.)
9. Sense of responsibility to the self and others is impaired. (The Devil made me do it; it's the fault of some imaginary conspiracy of people who are NOT IMPAIRED and make well.)
10. Inability to orchestrate one's survival at the command of one's own free will. (Hence they seek the HEAD to guide them: fascism, religion, etc. practical Jesus e.g. Hitler, Stalin.)
11. Inventive of tales with no foundation except one's own FANCY in regard to the self (fantasy, LIES; their selective amnesia as to the deeds they've really done.)
12. Lack of concern about one's future. (God will FIX it.)
13. No forethought, especially for social planning.
14. Decisions are ACTIVELY disadvantageous, they set up their own downfall. (THANATOS.)
15. A value system exists and can be utilized in abstract terms, but it is unconnected to REAL LIFE situations. Decisions are minimally influenced by past experience (they never learn) and old knowledge. CAPRICE REIGNS. (Civilized "values" -- wear clothes, cut down trees, act polite and stuffy.)
16. Mental functions are intact: attention, perceptions, working and long term memory, language, intelligence: their appearance is STEREOTYPICALLY NORMAL (for the western world)!! (Good parrots who KNOW nothing, and often learn poorly and parrot it all wrong except on paper tests.) And yet these descriptions are defining physically BRAIN DAMAGED people, people with literal HOLES in their heads and SEVERE damage! That's the DANGER here.
17. Self description or memory narration takes the form of dispassionate, uninvolved specator of one's own life! One never gets a sense that the person has suffered, even though he is the protagonist eg, in a narrative about a tragedy. (split apart from themselves, head VERSUS body). (cf. False memory syndrome.)
18. Defects in reasoning intelligence is only glaringly apparent in the late stages of reasoning close to the points at which their choices and selections are made, responses that affect one's personal and social survival. (Sounds logical, but is illogical as hell; looks like a house, but it is a house turned upside-down with no foundation).
19. Reduction in emotional reactivity and feeling. They SEEM cold-blooded or icey. Telling a story that is PACKED with emotional feelings that you KNOW affected their lives, they can cooly say that "well, it was as if the person was a stranger" but what did they FEEL? No response, as if the feeling-state is not there. No words to define it.
20. In reasoning, all options are equal, none are value-highlighted over others. Decision making landscape for them is FLAT.
21. They all have courteous "English valet politeness" and are docile. (Note, description does not say FRENCH valet or GERMAN valet. English valet politeness is VICTORIAN. Note that Germans and French never even went thru an historical stage like this. Must mean such people are RARE or at least not dominant in Germany or France. This describes WASPs' NORMAL social behavior! To us, this is NOT NORMAL to be this way. In fact: IT IS NOT NORMAL to be this way, it's the "dead thing" trying to ACT like a civilized human.)
22. Constant "light humor" and witticism of a mildly SARDONIC type, sometimes hinting that the subject "feels superior" to what he is talking about.
23. Deviations from ROUTINE cause bad tempers and frustration. (So they'd be likely to DESPISE more random cultures who are easy-going and care-free.)
24. Sexual interests are dim, emotional involvement with partners is lacking.
25. Behavior is stereotypical, unimaginative, lacking in initiative. (Tend to want clones of themselves, all equally nothing.)
26. Using reward and punishment on them does NOT change their behavior, as if they are unable to learn as any animal WOULD learn using this method. (Either a massacre or the U.N. makes them go away after you've told them to get lost 100 times. Then they wonder why.)
27. Memory is capricious: it fails where you would expect learning to have occurred, but it succeeds suddenly on a peripheral subject and often in great detail. (Repeat the same errors.)
28. Neither happy nor sad. They are as if numb. Pleasures and pains both are short-lived. They are less able to experience pleasure and REACT to pain.
29. They are rigid and perseverent in their approach to life. (Controllers, can't let go.)
30. They lack motor skills, sensory skills, and communication skills. (Seem stupid, motor retarded.)
31. They lack and cannot construct appropriate theories of other people's minds, or even their own minds. (They never know the EFFECT they have on other people and how people SEE THEM)
32. They are completely unaware of any handicap. They'll deny it but tests show they are not LYING! (they "believe their own lies wherein they REFUTE "WHAT IS" therefore they are not lying as the word "lie" is used since they believe it) They have in fact LOST the cognitive function needed to KNOW they are handicapped. They may THEORIZE about it if it is "proven" but they are still unaware of its inadequacy (in the way you'd be AWARE of a stomach ache).
33. They may have a deceptive cheerful appearance; they often have an indifferent appearance which is also deceptive. None of these are voluntary or based on knowledge of the real situation they are in.
34. They have diminished facial expressions. (stone faced) (stiff upper lips) (startled-looking)
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Brain-damaged people can have other symptoms, some too long to detail shortly, and others (like indifference to health) that do NOT apply to cruxtoids. These above are defining what is CLEARLY "the cruxtoid man" as I learned about them and can SEE them.
What is remarkable is that these are the symptoms of SEVERELY BRAIN DAMAGED/injured people, that all share these IDENTICAL symptoms, hence Damasio called it the GAGE MATRIX (from the name of a patient, Gage.)
Some cruxtoids are OBSESSED with their health, but nothing they do is logical -- it is all disastrous. Getting into "health foods," macrobiotic diets, anorexia, bulemia, abstaining from foods IMAGINED bad for the health, etc.
What is scary is that this list describes the NORMAL western TYPE or WASP. It does NOT describe most Germans or French. A lot of these symptons are also symptoms of schizophrenia or SCHIZOID personalities, but this is highly deceptive. Damasio shows this wrong perception to be what he calls the "Long Night of Behaviorism."
What is actually going on is that these people are unable to process CARNAL information that their bodies feed into their brains. UNABLE. They DO NOT connect what is REAL outside themselves by using their bodies as the GUIDE. They are UNABLE to use memory to learn from errors, yet can lock onto details about something not relevant -- yet on tests they show they have NOTHING WRONG with their memories. The problem here is not the memory, it is in the BODY being unable to feed CARNAL MEMORY. Memorizing something on a piece of paper for a test is different than learning physically (motor inteligence) and automatically (without thinking) from a prior disaster.
How is it known that these behaviors are caused by the brain damage, and not just part of the in-general cruxtoid behavior? Because they can take normal humans whose brains function identically to animals, INHIBIT parts of their brains, and PRODUCE these behaviors. Yet the humans test as well on tests after brain damage as they do prior to brain damage. They make the same "ethical choices" on ethics tests, they have the same IQ, etc. etc.
So the conclusion that these behaviors are NOT PART of the brain damage but are only normal cruxtoid society traits is FALSE. These neurologists have CONCLUSIVELY proven this, tho they do not refer to these behaviors as cruxtoid (christian). They DON'T label them, save to say they are symptoms of brain damage, which they CAN test for now.
So then, how is a native to react when he is subjugated by a pack of brain damaged cruxtoids? Shut up and obey, and/or completely revolt. History shows that reasoning with them has NEVER worked. They were rousted either by physical brute force or by the pressures put upon them by the U.N.
That these people don't know there is anything wrong with them is not good; that they are trying to gain control of other normal people and this country is also, not good. The carnal human does NOT HAVE the obessive perseverence that these rigid would-be controllers have, nor their "fear" of life.
There are FIVE neurologically distinct zones in the brain that have to do with the FIVE senses and how these senses "blend" in a manner that might look like another sense. Once again, we were RIGHT: WE, who are exactly like other animals, DO NOT have some sixth sense that cruxtoids and others have thought. And only a LYING person would PRETEND he has this when he is just normal and in the midst of brain-damaged cruxtoids.
Cruxtoids have forever seen us as "carnally dominated" as if we are OVERLY physical/material. No! We are NORMAL CREATURES. It is THEY who become dominated by "ideas" and "ideals" that have ABSOLUTELY NO basis in the real world. It is they who have called the shots, condemning the normal people for being "of the world, hence of the devil." It is THEY who have passed off their DAMAGE as "superior" with nothing real to use in their criteria of "superior."
It is also THEY who are the first to WANNABE elite, or special. That would mean that unlike the obviously brain-damaged people Damasio writes about, these cruxtoids must somehow BE AWARE, on some level, that there is something WRONG WITH THEM. Severely brain damaged people really DO NOT know there is something wrong with them, and they don't think there is something wrong with others either. They leave people alone. Cruxtoids NEVER leave people alone, no matter if they call themselves "christians" or something else. They will travel miles to further some insane "ideal" and create misery for themselves, others, and their own children. All they do is disastrous, and yet they seem unstoppable.
The worst misinterpretation of OUR OWN ideas they make, when one of us has written them, is to think this sick idealism/fantasy realm they live in is somehow associated with Will. Yet they'd project all sorts of insane behavior onto animals, or claim animals have NO will -- meanwhile animals are PERFECT BEINGS. I can imagine why such people would think animals had no will: because animals are nothing like themselves. When they meet other people who are JUST LIKE animals, they are equally unable to understand us.
Cruxtoid is a pun. Crux is cross and crusade. Cruk is a bend. Cruke or crukez is a crooked staff or crutch as a crippled person might use. Crook also, crooks of life. Crock also, as in "crock of shit." Oid has a science and science-fiction connotation (as in hemorrhoid) and is usually said in a humorous fashion when NOT said scientifically. Toid is "Brooklynese" for "turd." It is also a homonym-pun for "toyed." Toit means proud, stiff, or snappish. (Hoity-toity) The syllable without the "d" would be toy, as in "a toy" or a joke.
Without knowing the pun, the word "cruxtoid" tends to convey a picture to those of us who know what this is. The picture is that of a stiff, robotic, toy-soldier-like male, the ascetic, the proud onward crusading soldier stomping in robotic formation off to some idiotic war to make other normal humans as CRIPPLED as he is. It conjures up the image of a pole-like geek, a dolt, a simple-minded but pompous asshole; a non-feeling thing that simply obeys not only "jump off the roof" but needs to be told HOW to jump.
There is a section in the play "Faust" by Goethe wherein Mephistopheles (the Joker Supreme) removes the "anima" from Faust. He then becomes the military ascetic: the Christian Supreme. Faust experiences this lack-of-feeling and lack of anima as worse than death. It is humorous in the extreme to see illiterates trying to read this and thinking that "to be Faustian" means to be what Faust considered worse than dead.
This they do because they are: CRUXTOIDS. (Woof, woof. Is it a cat YET? Meoof, meooff. NOW is it a cat? Let the THING STRIVE MORE. It will NEVER BE a cat. Because it IS a dog! A Cruxtoid will never "GET IT" in terms of Satanism. Not possible. CLINICALLY not possible.)